So stuck.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by destroythesethoughts, Oct 28, 2012.

  1. destroythesethoughts

    destroythesethoughts Active Member

    I posted a while in the substance abuse forum that I was addicted to synthetic weed.
    No this isn't a post saying I'm all better now and living a happy life. I'm not.
    I'm still super f*cking addicted and now I get drunk almost everyday.
    I can't hold a thought for more than two minutes, I can't remember things I do or say.
    I remember bits and pieces through the holes in my memory.
    I'm falling further and further.
    Do I even want the help anymore?
    I'm too tired to think.
    My mind isn't working, it never does.
    Hey, I think my heart stopped working to.
    It's probably dead like the rest of me.
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Have you spoken to someone about these addictions? Having an addictive personality myself, I know that sometimes it is not what I take, but how I react to what I take...maybe you can explore this too
  3. destroythesethoughts

    destroythesethoughts Active Member

    I'm afraid to talk to anyone about my addictions except for people on here.