I posted a while in the substance abuse forum that I was addicted to synthetic weed. No this isn't a post saying I'm all better now and living a happy life. I'm not. I'm still super f*cking addicted and now I get drunk almost everyday. I can't hold a thought for more than two minutes, I can't remember things I do or say. I remember bits and pieces through the holes in my memory. I'm falling further and further. Do I even want the help anymore? I'm too tired to think. My mind isn't working, it never does. Hey, I think my heart stopped working to. It's probably dead like the rest of me.