Forgot I even had this account; just the fact that I feel no different than I did 9 years ago proves that I shouldn't be here. I've tried it all, medication and counseling. <Mod Edit: Methods> I've rearranged my life, made positive changes, sought help. Nothings changed. I'm still miserable. I don't understand. Whats wrong with me. 9 Fin years. . .You know, that's so messed up; even more so, I've been feeling this way since I was 12 years old. So here I am, 27 now, writing a stupid thread on a forum hoping that it'll change the way I feel. Is it wrong to not want to subject myself to another 40-50 years of misery? I think I've done more then enough time, I've given it a good shot, wouldn't you agree? Honestly tell me I haven't tried hard enough. I don't want to come back to this site in another 10 years and say the same tired lines. All I want is a "yes". Yes you've tried and now you can rest.