So I completely froze in the referral meeting I had and I just couldn't say the real reason I was having problems. Not huge since they're more for those that need drugs and I don't think I do (at least not yet). So he sent me with a note back to the counseling offices (which are real trained therapists) and I had a walk in appointment (so 20-30 minutes). I had been there before and felt like I was being nothing but a pain but this time was completely different. I got a different therapist than I had previously seen and I actually feel like it helped. I think a few things made a difference. 1) She's a woman, while my other therapist was a man. I don't care if it makes me seem sexist or whatever, but it's just hard to talk to another guy about your feelings. It's like there is a biological/psychological condition to not show emotions in front of another male. I think this is why I froze in the referral. So this time I actually talked about what was really bothering me and not just making up excuses about my academics. 2) She took the initiative to read my body language, facial expressions and other non verbal ques and brought up the topics for me. I'm still nervous about what I'm willing to reveal (I really don't want others to be brought in). But because she asked about and said things that were completely true, I felt that I could talk and not worry. She identified things and characteristics about me that I tend to hide very well from everyone else and actually asked about whether I show any of my frustration and loneliness when I'm in public (I don't). It was creepy but absolutely amazing how well she picked up things. 3) She said she sees me as someone who has a long history and is likely very stubborn about my views and how I see the world. This means she understands that I can't just try and be positive or simply stop my way of thinking and that will make everything all better (this is basically what I got from my first therapist). I talked and revealed more in the 45 mins (she went long for me) with her, than I did in multiple 1 hour sessions with the first guy. I'm on a high right now because for the first time in a long time I feel like I have a person that I can talk face to face with and feel comfortable enough with to reveal the real source of my depressions and maybe make some headway. I know it will only take one thing to kick me down again but at least I can actually talk about it at my next appointment in about 2 weeks. I guess the person you get really does make a huge difference.