So Tired of Life

[emotional_girl]

I'm so tired of life...so tired of living...just want to go to sleep and never wake up...

 

[Hoasis]

I'm so tired of life...so tired of living...just want to go to sleep and never wake up...

So sorry you feel that way, I feel the same too, just wish I had never existed. What makes you have these feelings? are you lonely or just depressed?

 

[emotional_girl]

Not lonely. I have a wonderful husband. Just depressed with life in general.

 

[Monoka]

hey,
do you take anything for your depression or see anyone about it?
Take care
:hug: :arms:

 

[emotional_girl]

My husband doesn't want me to take anti-depressants or go to counseling. He thinks it's a waste of money. I don't think he really realizes how serious it is.

 

[Monoka]

its about you not him.
if you think you need to see someone do it. wanting to sleep and never wake up isnt 'not serious'.

maybe see someone without telling him?

 

[emotional_girl]

I don't work so the only money that comes in for us is the money my husband makes at his job. Counseling costs so much that I couldn't do it without my husband noticing money being spent that he didn't know about and start asking questions. Besides, my husband and I are completely honest with each other. I wouldn't want to be dishonest with him.

 

[PollyAnna]

Have u ever called a help line,then? It's nothing like therapy or counselling,but it's a free alternative! :hug:

 

[In Limbo]

Have you thought about going to your GP to see if there are counselling options on your local NHS? It's inconsistent from what I understand - but may be worth a shot.

 

[emotional_girl]

PollyAnna, I have thought about calling a help line, but when I think about it, I panic. This is going to sound strange, but for some reason I am really nervous about making phone calls to people I don't know. That's how I was led here. I was doing a search on the internet for something similar to a suicide help line but where you can type instead of making a phone call.

In Limbo, GP is general practitioner, right? I will have to go back to my doctor soon because I will be out of refills on my blood pressure medicine. I will talk to him then. What is NHS? Please forgive my lack of knowledge.

 

[mulberrypie]

i watching your avatar for like 5 minutes. is it just me or does it get darker as the the x goes back and forth on it............ ?


anyway, it's not unusual to have anxiety about calling a help line. does your husband know you are depressed? im sorry you feel this way and i hope you get the help you need somehow.

 

[Lizzieni]

Hello

nhs is the national health system here in the Uk and yes Gp is your regular go-to doctor. Thankfully healthcare is free here so we don't have to worry about medicine and therapy costs. Wish you could all get it free too. Though we do have enormous waiting lists to see specialists- I once waited 9 months but gave up and went private. Thankfully I now have a brilliant psychologist on the nhs. It's terrible that you can't afford help but definitely take the free crisis lines. I know the samaritans here in the Uk have a phoneline, email and dropin centres. There's bound to be a charity near you that can help. Keep googling. Hugs.