I don't work so the only money that comes in for us is the money my husband makes at his job. Counseling costs so much that I couldn't do it without my husband noticing money being spent that he didn't know about and start asking questions. Besides, my husband and I are completely honest with each other. I wouldn't want to be dishonest with him.
PollyAnna, I have thought about calling a help line, but when I think about it, I panic. This is going to sound strange, but for some reason I am really nervous about making phone calls to people I don't know. That's how I was led here. I was doing a search on the internet for something similar to a suicide help line but where you can type instead of making a phone call.
In Limbo, GP is general practitioner, right? I will have to go back to my doctor soon because I will be out of refills on my blood pressure medicine. I will talk to him then. What is NHS? Please forgive my lack of knowledge.
nhs is the national health system here in the Uk and yes Gp is your regular go-to doctor. Thankfully healthcare is free here so we don't have to worry about medicine and therapy costs. Wish you could all get it free too. Though we do have enormous waiting lists to see specialists- I once waited 9 months but gave up and went private. Thankfully I now have a brilliant psychologist on the nhs. It's terrible that you can't afford help but definitely take the free crisis lines. I know the samaritans here in the Uk have a phoneline, email and dropin centres. There's bound to be a charity near you that can help. Keep googling. Hugs.