I'm so tired of all this pain. No matter where I go, it's the same thing. I don't fit, I'm ignored and feel like I'm hated. Why? What's so wrong with me? My other two sisters have no problem with this. I've been the odd ball for as long as I can remember. My Mom is unaccepting, critical,and ever misguided. I have a good heart. I feel like I'm a good person. I try to be nice to people, because I don't like being mean. I work hard at my job to provide for my son. I'm terrified he is going to inherit this legacy, this curse from me. I'm happy for a little while, but my work is draining me. My coworkers hate me. They ignore me, and never, ever talk to me. If I talk to them, they do not look at me. They pretend as if I am not there. I have pulled people aside and asked if there is a problem. At first, I wasn't respected because I wasn't very good at my job. Now that I am, the problem is still there. I've asked, and asked, and asked, over and over again, if there's a problem. We got a new TSgt, and he treats me the same. Any suggestions, comments I may make, are brushed aside. I am ignored by him as well. I feel like no one gives a damn about me, or my son! I'm thinking about offing myself after I take my son to my Mom's next week. She raised my sisters to be popular and confident. Everyone loves them. Maybe she can do the same for him. I'll just make him into the weak, pathetic, sad creature that I am.