I am tired. I am tired if fighting, overcoming, getting through, and making things work. I have lost all strength in dealing with life's many blows, so I am here. I am overwhelmed. My job is extremely demanding--I am in the office 12 hrs. Sometimes until 3am. I work weekends. It is a struggle. I am in a major city where I know very few people. I have snapped. Not only did I deal with the stress from job, I was diagnosed with a medical condition last year that required surgery. I suffered in unexplanable pain for months. Finally, I found out I needed surgery to remove ovarian cysts. But the first surgery was a failure. Why? I was more screwed up than they thought and needed a specialist. I was infertile until I could have surgery and even then, my chances to conceive were slim. So more doctors who wanted to remove everything. I found someone and boom ... she misread my ultrasounds and the medication she gave me made my condition worse! So another surgeon...surgery...recovery....IVF visits...and a drug that makes me crazy and makes me feel like a man. And in the middle, my father has a major stroke. States away I have to fly to the hospital every weekend for a month and now monthly to see him. My siblings basically are useless. He calls to tell me what to do when he passes away. How my siblings dont help out. And this makes me upset and depressed. And I have now reached my breaking point. My boyfriend of a year broke up with me because I can't have kids or guarantee I can have kids when he is ready. He lost romantic interest in me. He lied to me. He is now seeing someone else. And all sorts of people now know I have fertility issues. I can't deal with all of this anymore. I fight to stay alive, and I am tired of fighting. I am tired of tge heartache, disappointment, sadness, frustration and anger. I AM TIRED.