It kinda just hit me now that I picked up <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> today. It hit me as I was looking up how long it would take so I knew when to post the suicide note (also have one signed in person.) I was literally sitting here smiling because I knew I was going out big, like I always liked to do things. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> Since I don't want to fuck this up and end up with all kinds of issues I was planning on doing it big. So right now the only thing that'll really stop me from doing this would be a miracle. I kinda want someone else's opinion on this, and time is kinda a big factor sooo.... ummm any advice would be nice lol, I'm like, not scared at all, or freaked out or sad or anything, I'm actually excited and happy again because of this. I'm thinking help may be needed. But I'm not exactly sure lol.