My doctor is leaving her practice. I'm balling my eyes out. I'm so upset that I don't want to be in this life. She was the only person I was down right honest with. More then my therapist. She took out extra time to ask me if i was ok mentally even though that wasn't her job, every time I've seen her. If I was having really bad breakung down. I could walk right in the office and she would squeeze me in. Even if it was on her lunch break. Even seen her at the grocery store couple of times and she would give me a hug. She has been my doctor for 12 years. I feel like self harming. I don't know what to do. I feel down right stupid to taking it so bad.