I always hear people say that you shouldn't rely on others for your happiness but I'm always alone. I am so freakin lonely and with every passing day the depression about how lonely I am worsens. It's this terrible downward spiral ... I'm depressed so I don't do anything and the not doing anything makes it hard to go out and meet people, friends or otherwise. I so want to be in a relationship that just the typing of that made me have to take in a deep breath. I never in a million years would have thought i would be alone at 53. what happened? and the longer i'm alone, the more bitter I become. so it's only going to continue to get worse. Take today for example. I asked a couple of people to go to an apple festival with me. I never heard back from them so i didn't go. all i've done today is watch tv and play on the computer. i am just so sad. anything i do, i do alone. and i don't know how much more i can take.