so tired. thought I got away from abusive mom and dad. then married 2 men who are abusive. can't get away from 2nd one. can't get away but dying. only way out. i'm just so damn tired. I just wan to die. i'm so stupd for marrying men just like my mom and dad. what is wrong with me? how could I do something so dumb. I gues I deserve whatever I get.