I am almost 30 years old and have been struggling with depression for over a decade (since I was 16) and struggling with sexual desire for just as wrong. No matter how much improvement I make something happens and it all comes crashing down. Over and over for more than a decade. I am just so very tired of it all. I want to die. I want to be free from the struggle and the brokeness, but I never seem to work up the nerve to take my own life. Instead I keep just hoping to die randomly one of these days. I don't know if I am looking for answers with this post....I am just so very tired of all the struggles.