I'm really tired of living. I took <mod edit: bunny - methods> pills around a year ago but I was strapped onto a stretcher and taken to the er where they forced me to drink some black charcoal stuff and throw it all back out. After that, I had to deal with some more shit. I want to die, but at the same time I'm afraid of dieing. Will there be hell afterwards, or nothing at all? I want rest. I need rest. I think the best way for me to die is if by some drive-by shooting, if I can't do it myself, but the chances of that happening is slim. I honestly don't know why I'm posting here. I just want somebody to hear me, someone I don't know, before I die.