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Scum

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All normal, and then one tiny thing throws me totally out. My coping strategies are non existant and so many times recently I've been just on the verge.

I haven't been here for a long time.

It's scary but equally, it's quite unnerving.
 

Scum

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Sorry. I wans't trying to 'let anyone know how I was doing' because I know that no one actually knows me on here anymore, although some might recognise my name, and no one actually gives a shit.

I was reaching out for support. Sorry, it wasn'r clear and I shouldn't have posted. Should just have gotten on with it and wait and seen what happened to me.
 

Jenny

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Scum (still don't like calling you that!!)

I remember you! I care! I really truly do. I'm so sorry things are so hard. What's going on for you? Do you want to write about it? I am 'listening' and i care.. please hold on

xx
 

Scum

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Just exceptionall overwhelmed and scared right now and taking all those tablets seems like a wonderful plan- it's a way out, a way where I don't have to deal anything. Except, history says I will anyway.

So I'm going to take one sleeping tablet and just while the night away asleep- better than the full on breakdown I had last night.
 

Sais

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Even if we don't know each other in person, I noticed here almost everyone is
empathetic, I for one, when I read this kind of posts I feel as if it were happening to myself.
I'm almost in your situation, I took a lot of pills to get me through the night.
So, I'm pretty sure I care. Hope you can get through the night as well.
hugs!
 

Sadeyes

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Hi and so sorry you are feeling this way...just wanted to say that I am glad you came here for support, and yes, I do know and remember you...hoping you get some badly needed rest...please continue to let us know how you are doing
 

IV2010

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I remember you scum and I care...sorry you're feeling so **** that you need to come back here but glad you have reached out for help..
taking a sleeping pill is also my way of coping through the 'crisis'
i hope you get some sleep
we're here if you want to talk more about whats brought you back *hugs*
 

Jenny

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Sorry you had a breakdown of emotion the other night.. sounds really difficult and lonely. Did you manage to get some sleep last night? How are you doing today? Thinking of you. I care. Jenny x
 

Scum

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Thank you so much guys. I'm 'ok' which I guess means still here, still not done anything. I have to go into hospital tomorrow for physical stuff which i'm terrified about and there is so much else going on in my life that is so deeply overwhelming. I had a good sleep and today mum stayed with my all day which helped greatly.

More sleeping tablet taking tonight I think (properly, I mean) :)
 

IV2010

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I wish you all the best for hospital...I hope it goes well
the anxiety of going there makes me consider the 'other' option..I hate hospital..
is there someone who can stay with you tonite so you don't feel so alone
please don't take more than one pill S..
*hug*
 

Scum

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#17
Thanks :) I'm back from hosptal and very proud of myself for going through everything.

I'm hoping against hope that now that hugely overwhelming feelin to Od might start easing, instead of appearing anytime anything is perceived as going 'wrong' or being even a tiny tad stressful.

If not and I OD, hey ho, nevermind.
 

jimk

Staff Alumni
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i hate using your name also Scum.. it puts a real negative slant on you just by the name..

the name of this place is suicide forum.. that means everyone here has also come close to ending it all.. everyone that is still here has won the battle so far.. hoorays and congrats to everyone still here

Scum , we all care about you just cause you still are.. please be careful to keep your life going. careful with the sleeping pills. reach out for some help if it is really needing... hang in there please.. Jim
 
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