so weak...

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by cookiemonster, Feb 13, 2010.

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  1. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    i am actually so weak that i can't leave this place. i don't deserve any of it. i'm too weak for any of you. i just want to hurt myself
     
  2. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    You too deserve this place of caring and love of course you do! I am not sure why you don't feel worthy, most likely you don't feel to good about yourself and I know what that is like but it is when we feel the worse about ourselves we need to surround ourselves with those that can remind of us of our inner worth and beauty. You sound tired of fighting so hard so please rest and lean on all your friends here. We think you are worth and we care about you.
     
  3. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    I'm just so tired. its too much for me to live on my own. i wanted to leave this place to show i could do whatever i needed to on my own. it really didn't work because here i still am, feeling more crappy than ever. and i don't know what to do *cry*
     
  4. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Emily..... you need to heal. Just give it time. We are all here for you.
     
  5. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    I just want to be independent and not have to lean on everyone quite as heavy. I've been told that its destructive and not to do it
     
  6. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    It's going to take time, Emily. Give yourself time. The rest of us don't mind.
     
  7. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    You can lean on us anytime you want or need. who ever told you not to lean on people don't know what it means to be ill. We care okay talk to us and take one day at a time Cry all you want it does help okay but know we all care about you.
     
  8. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    i can't deal with all this right now. i'm too ill, too stressed. all i want to do is go to that place
    and end it
     
  9. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Emily.... we are here for you to lean on.... we don't mind
     
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Please just rest okay know we care always we don't mind okay we care
     
  11. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    thank you. but i'm not safe to be around atm
     
  12. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    you are safe here this place is safe if you are not feeling safe can you call someone to talk to them a councillor a crisis number. A real voice sometimes helps me calm down a bit. Keep talking here it will keep your mind busy
     
  13. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Talk to us, Emily. Don't shut yourself down.
     
  14. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    :hug:..
    we're here..
     
  15. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    :hug: i just feel hopeless, not worth this. i just can't push forward. don't have a goal, can't see a future. no point
     
  16. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Don't look so far ahead okay just look at today getting thru it doing your best today. take one day at a time when your this low okay sometimes l hour at a time just keep posting okay
     
  17. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    I agree with violet. Take things slow. Don't expect too much from yourself.
     
  18. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    thank you both. you are utterly awesome. i just can't stop hurting myself... i need to get away :cry:
     
  19. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    no point anymore. i'm gonna do a ridiculous amount of damage tonight so it seems barely worth me
    being here. i'm just going to let those who care down
     
  20. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    What's goin' on Emily..?
     
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