I can't kill myself, and I can't be a functional, useful part of society. SO what the fuck am I supposed to do? I have no reason to be happy. I have no reason to want to be alive. I just go through the motions and tick off, alienate, insult, etc. any people that are even still around me. I don't think like anyone else and not in the "can be fixed with therapy" BS. I'm not an alcoholic or drug addict but I can understand the wanting to be numb and just not care about anything.