What do you do when you feel like no one would even notice if you were gone? I feel like I had a few good days and then life kicked me in the teeth again. I've only told two people that I'm seriously considering just ending everything. The first is one of the pastors I work with at church. Now most of the time I feel like he's ignoring me, and the other half I'm afraid he's going to tell me that I can't volunteer with the ministry I work with anymore. He says he's trying to get the church to pay for me to go to counseling since I'm not working and have no insurance to cover it. But that was a week ago and I really don't see that happening. The other person that knows is my sponsor. (I'm part of a 12 step recovery group.) Not only did she make me feel worse when I told her, but this morning she sent me a txt saying she couldn't be my sponsor anymore. So what do you do when you're second guessing everyone and completely at the end of your rope?