I'm quite new here and instead of just reading a huge amount of threads by anyone I just start my own firsthand. I'll read and eventually comment and help other around, if possible.
Where to start;
- I have a gf for about the last 9 years, however, it seems that given my and her age (I'm 26, she's 30) we should really "grown up". Having steady jobs, living together and whatnot. Now, I don't feel like doing that anytime soon. Heck, I even might attend college when the new year starts, spending at least 4 years there. She finally graduated university and I'm... pretty much lacking any general interest in most fields, I just don't care, hence I spend a decent amount in college just to end it all after the first year. I got pretty much got fired at my previous job because I was overqualified without any decent papers. So now I'm looking for a new job, found one, but after just one day I'm like... I'm having a nervous breakdown. So the foreseeable future is quite dark IMO. At least, when thinking about my relationship and a general look in life and the working culture. Pretty much each discussion I have with her ends up in somekind of emotional blackmail... "well, what do you want me to do? What about us and our future? etc."
- I still feel I have troubles with conforming to modern societies standards. When I tied the knot to decide and get a job I donned most of my "extreme looks", as piercings, and the occaisonal "goth look" might not really might get you into jobs. Hence, I thought it over and tried to get over it. About 2 years later, I still feel like I'm caged.
- With current events I have a hard time getting anything done. I sleep too much, spend little time on things I used to love. And thus ending up wasting time, just trying to cope with... well, just being...
- I'm not that much of a social person, thus my group of friends is limited. If I like to talk with friends, I'd like a good conversation, not something like... oh, we're just hanging out. Talk to me about music composition, about synthesis-theory, about heck... talk to me the universe in 11 dimensions as pointed out by Hawkings. Sure I do have a group of people I can talk to, just seen them once, and probably be just seeing them once a month in the regional, monthly meeting of Mensans, as I'm a member of Mensa. Now, just to add to that, that as it seems those people are really bright, even they didn't understand what I was talking about when I popped up a discussion about the Singularity-theory... so hence, a small friends group... 2 people, one of which is my gf and the other, well... I don't consider him that much of a friend anymore as he proved to be not reliable at all for the X-th time.
At this time I'm visiting a psychotherapist of sorts, just to point out my plethora of problems, however, it seems it just costs me a hefty amount of cash and I'm getting none of it back. Sure, it's nice to talk to someone about my problems, but if even that person cannot be constructive at times I need someone... then yes, I think I have a personal crisis.
The only thing that pretty much came to conclusion with the therapist was that it seemed I had a high standard on things I want. I either want something to be perfect, otherwise I just don't care. I need things to devote my life too, not a couple of things just done halfway... hence, I get pissed easily at people whom don't take their job extremly serious...
Yeah, I might be a drama queen, but it's still mr. drama queen to you. If you're still reading by now, I hope I didn't scare anyone off by giving the impression I have extreme standards... but it seems a completly uncontrollable thing that sets me off more every day...
Where to start;
- I have a gf for about the last 9 years, however, it seems that given my and her age (I'm 26, she's 30) we should really "grown up". Having steady jobs, living together and whatnot. Now, I don't feel like doing that anytime soon. Heck, I even might attend college when the new year starts, spending at least 4 years there. She finally graduated university and I'm... pretty much lacking any general interest in most fields, I just don't care, hence I spend a decent amount in college just to end it all after the first year. I got pretty much got fired at my previous job because I was overqualified without any decent papers. So now I'm looking for a new job, found one, but after just one day I'm like... I'm having a nervous breakdown. So the foreseeable future is quite dark IMO. At least, when thinking about my relationship and a general look in life and the working culture. Pretty much each discussion I have with her ends up in somekind of emotional blackmail... "well, what do you want me to do? What about us and our future? etc."
- I still feel I have troubles with conforming to modern societies standards. When I tied the knot to decide and get a job I donned most of my "extreme looks", as piercings, and the occaisonal "goth look" might not really might get you into jobs. Hence, I thought it over and tried to get over it. About 2 years later, I still feel like I'm caged.
- With current events I have a hard time getting anything done. I sleep too much, spend little time on things I used to love. And thus ending up wasting time, just trying to cope with... well, just being...
- I'm not that much of a social person, thus my group of friends is limited. If I like to talk with friends, I'd like a good conversation, not something like... oh, we're just hanging out. Talk to me about music composition, about synthesis-theory, about heck... talk to me the universe in 11 dimensions as pointed out by Hawkings. Sure I do have a group of people I can talk to, just seen them once, and probably be just seeing them once a month in the regional, monthly meeting of Mensans, as I'm a member of Mensa. Now, just to add to that, that as it seems those people are really bright, even they didn't understand what I was talking about when I popped up a discussion about the Singularity-theory... so hence, a small friends group... 2 people, one of which is my gf and the other, well... I don't consider him that much of a friend anymore as he proved to be not reliable at all for the X-th time.
At this time I'm visiting a psychotherapist of sorts, just to point out my plethora of problems, however, it seems it just costs me a hefty amount of cash and I'm getting none of it back. Sure, it's nice to talk to someone about my problems, but if even that person cannot be constructive at times I need someone... then yes, I think I have a personal crisis.
The only thing that pretty much came to conclusion with the therapist was that it seemed I had a high standard on things I want. I either want something to be perfect, otherwise I just don't care. I need things to devote my life too, not a couple of things just done halfway... hence, I get pissed easily at people whom don't take their job extremly serious...
Yeah, I might be a drama queen, but it's still mr. drama queen to you. If you're still reading by now, I hope I didn't scare anyone off by giving the impression I have extreme standards... but it seems a completly uncontrollable thing that sets me off more every day...
I think everyone has personal issues, not only on SF. But it seems that the magnitude and way of coping is what brings some of us here.