...Once again I managed to hurt everyone that ever seemed to have loved me even the tiniest bit. It sucks. Why do I keep on having these moments in which I push away EVERYONE that ever gives a shit about me. Cant take it no more. Yes I wanna go to 'that' place, where I can't hurt people no more and where people can't hurt me nomore. I wont be faced with the pain of those 2 losses anymore, I won't be faced with the disappointment of my parents anymore. I won't be faced with the urge to do it anymore. I won't be faced with the consequenses of my hurtful deeds anymore. I wont hurt anyone anymore. Nor can I be hurt, ever again. Can't wait to leave. and now I leave.