I have reduced my want to sleep forever or kill myself with the following: Increase your suppliments of vitamin B dosage, particularly, niacin B3 (50 to 1000 mils under doctors supervision), inositol B8 (I have found nothing better to eliminate racing thoughts and help me sleep), and B12 (all day energy versus fatigue), along with 2000 mils of asorbate vitamin C. Eat only raw organic foods for 90% of your diet, no processed foods NONE! Only eat meats, eggs, and dairy(raw not pasteurized) without steroids and drugs (free range). Eliminate MSG and aspertame-sweetener and all foods that have words you cannot pronounce on the label, get a water-purifier for your drinking water. All of this will improve you immediately, some of us are hyper sensitive to the poisons put in our foods and water. You are not crazy or depressed, you are poisoned, eliminate the influences. Then the tuff part will be to stop drinking alcohol and get off drugs, however your increased vitamin B and improved lifestyle will make this easier. Then the hardest part of all will be to destroy and rebuild the negative neural pathways the poisons created that infect your attitude. Recreate positive mental associations with what and who you are as a person, focus on living in a positive wonderful future doing glorious things, surrounded by things you love and people who love you. Eliminate people you consider to be an asshole from your life (you know who they are). No porn, no horror, no police dramas when you watch tv, and take up a hobby one hour a day (photography, pottery, art, puzzles, build models, gourmet cooking, try out for commercials, etc) and add physical exercise like yoga to your day. If you do not like who you are then this is how you can become someone likable. If you are serious, then you can do this!