So you want to end it all? Life isnt working out, correct? Try this on for size; Chapter 7 Bankrupty 1990 Chapter 13 Bankrupcty 1995 Chapter 7 BankRupcty 2005 Chapter 13 Bankrupcty 2009 Divorce Blood Pressure as high as 160 over 105 My Father molested a young female family member, went to prison and is not practically a walking vegtable due to the massive brain injry he suffered when he was beaten to within an inch of his life while in prison. Really, really bad credit. Car is a piece of crap, can't afford to fix. Work 2 jobs, with never a day off. EVER. Really bad teeth and gums Diverticulitis Hyiatal Hernia IBS with polyps Alcoholic Manic Depressive Was sexually molested as a child around the age of 10 while on paper route. Been a smoker since the age of 15! Now I am 42! Was picked on and bullied from age 7 thru age 16. Deviated Septum Constantly get really bad canker sores College Dropout Given the gift of music by God, when ironically helped destroy my marriage and now I can't afford to keep up that gift. Hate my sibling Sibling hates me. Poor eyesite Sleep Apnea Seasonal Echzema Bad Asthma And even with all of this crap, I somehow still manage to hang on each day. I have a lot to die for. I have very little to live for. But I do. I struggle each day, for my kids, and for me. And even though I have endured all of that crap, and am still enduring a lot of it, I continue to have some idea of hope that tomorrow will be a bit better than today. Now if I can do it, so can you!