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[LeaveMeAlone]

i'm thinking about posting a load of suicide methods and other bad stuff so that i get myself banned. i figure then thats one less place to turn to. it all helps in trying to ensure i really do it this time.

 

[Allo..]

please dont...

 

[jane doe]

by posting things like that you won´t be just banned, you will give some ideas to somebody who can kill him/herself. why do you want to be banned? and if you want it, can you just don´t come anymore?

 

[LeaveMeAlone]

the problem is i'm not dead yet, there is this annoying part of me that tries to fight to live, i need to remove it's options so that it gives up and lets me kill myself.

 

[blackfire]

I agree with jane. If you want to be banned, just stop coming to this site. Don't give people ideas that could help harm them.

 

[jane doe]

if a part of you still want to live then you must hear it, and no one of us will let you go, please talk to us but don´t do anything that could be dangerous for other people. if you need to talk i´m here.

 

[LeaveMeAlone]

you're right obviously, tho I think you missed my point, my intention would be that the info would be deleted and my account banned, thus making it impossible for me to come back here for support, meaning that i feel even more helpless and actually them possibly, finally being motivated enough to kill myself. If I just chose not to come to the site well then I would be able to just choose to kill myself, unfortunatly my self preservation insticts seems to run quite high.

But i'm feeling better now, it's a pity the tramadol are so slow to kick in. And my sister took my <suicide method> from me. I will try and see a doctor tomorrow I think if I can, and explain that I need something stronger, Maybe they'll listen.

 

[jane doe]

well. i´m glad you´re a little better. don´t just tell them you need something stronger, tell them what´s going on, they´ll give you something stronger if they see you aren´t fine.

 

[LeaveMeAlone]

doctor was a twat i tried to explain it to him but he didn't understand and was completly unsympathetic, even when i burst into tears in his office. he doubled up my mirtazapine, but he wouldn;t give me anything to help stop myself when i hit the lows, there are apparently places online where such things can be purchaced without the need for a perscription, so hopefuly I can track one of those down.

 

[Acetaminophen]

Aaaaaaaah!!!
I've done one method but somehow lived (i'm like invulnerable)
how come if you want to die you can't?
but if you don't want to, it happens randomly and fast?

but then, right now i don't want to die . . yet
and i think you should reconsider as well . .
give your self 100 last chances . . lol^^
no but srsly . .

oh btw i'm new here . . (i should write my story)
i just sound happy coz this is how i cope up with suicidal tendencies . .

 

[LilPandaBear]

so your gonna post methods to just get banned? WTF !

"okay, i posted how to suicide, now everyone else who reads this can know how to die ! whippiee ! everyone is happy now ! i helped kill some people and now i can kill myself ! "

go ask the mod to bann you. period ?