Life hasn't been the best lately. Not sure if this is where to put this, but I am thinking about suicide. This week has been good and bad. Tuesday I had to put my hamster down. She had some internal infection that wasn't getting any better even with the anti biotics they gave me. To top it all off, as soon as I got in there they are like "Ok so it's $61." I said to my friends..wow. They came with me. My two closest friends I guess who I just regained (due to ex boyfriend)
Yesteday was good and bad at the same time. Visited a friend in baltimore (2.5 hour drive) and we had a great time. I really like him. But, he's going to college an hour farther and he has no car. Tolls would kill me if I went down all the time, that and gas. I'm upset. I like him a lot. He's a great guy. Maybe we could do something. Ugh..
Now I am sick, and work all god damn weekend. I don't know. This was just my week. I feel worthless and if I did die nothing would matter. I wouldn't matter.
I know that I'm not going to get into Pre Vet medicine school when I apply this september. I know I wont become a vet. I know I'll fail.
I think I may do some bad things tonight. I don't care anymore. Fuckkk.
Someone help me please. :'(
Yesteday was good and bad at the same time. Visited a friend in baltimore (2.5 hour drive) and we had a great time. I really like him. But, he's going to college an hour farther and he has no car. Tolls would kill me if I went down all the time, that and gas. I'm upset. I like him a lot. He's a great guy. Maybe we could do something. Ugh..
Now I am sick, and work all god damn weekend. I don't know. This was just my week. I feel worthless and if I did die nothing would matter. I wouldn't matter.
I know that I'm not going to get into Pre Vet medicine school when I apply this september. I know I wont become a vet. I know I'll fail.
I think I may do some bad things tonight. I don't care anymore. Fuckkk.
Someone help me please. :'(