The housekeeper who set up my mom and stepfather is trying to "get me out" now. She's a sweet lady, a little intimidating, but anyway she brought over her daughter today. I was in my room but i heard my mom telling the daughter i'm a schizo, and all that. Tomorrow, after my appointment with a new psychiatrist, the housekeeper wants me to go hang out with her daughter and spend the night. Now. i was nervous enough just talking to the daughter when my mom was in the room with us. The girl's sweet, easygoing, my age, etc. but i am not used to people at all. I'm worried she'll ask me about my "illnesses," or talk about me behind my back, and my mom said she might get catty. I know these are mostly normal female issues, and i could be thinking too far ahead, but what if she hates me? Basically, how do you interact with people? What are normal things to talk about? They want me to go to the mall, etc. and i haven't been for months, maybe more than a year. I'm just really nervous and on the verge of a panic attack. My mom says to talk to the psychiatrist tomorrow and decide whether i'll go after then. I'm really nervous that a friendship won't work because my mom and the housekeeper kept saying her daughter could be jealous. There's nothing about me to be jealous about. In fact, i'm jealous that i'm not normal. and really, really nervous. I have ativan but i hate it with a passion. Should i take it or go cold turkey? I know this is all incoherent but advice would be appreciated. Thanks.