On Tuesday, I had plans to go to lunch with people from the bereavement group (I went six weeks to this group in May/June). I was planning to go to lunch until about a half hour before I was to leave. My fears of socializing became acute and I backed out. The result of this was feeling very angry at myself for being so weak. The second thing that happened was a desire to hurt myself. If I can not overcome this anxiety, I will be perpetually alone (a very sad place to be).