I've been a social outcast all my life and since I've fallen chronically ill have been even more so. I find that, in this condition, it is even more difficult to find love and understanding. People use and abuse you in the worst possible manner. The people that are nice tend to go for stable and socially successful persons. I feel so lonely as I long for love and understanding like everyone else does yet I cannot live with people who use and abuse me or who are impossible to live with. It is a vicious circle that is driving me crazy and which I cannot seem to escape. Every day I become more and more convinced of the fact that love and happiness are just for the lucky ones in life. I try to be active in life as much as is possible but I have not come across very nice people yet. Is there anyone who, despite the fact that they have not been very successful in terms of society's standards, has found a nice circle of friends and or a loving and accepting boyfriend/girlfriend?