Now, I would like to hear some opinions on this matter. I am having trouble meeting both social and religious obligations because they seem to contradict each other. Social obligations: Obtaining items, money, similar hobbies, and status to attract a mate capable of counteracting my genetic downsides. This includes finding ways to fix my scars and looks or at least compensate for them in some way. Religious obligations: Not becoming a victim of wants and materialism, but still required to spread my seed by finding a good mate. Social obligation 2: Losing my virginity to overcome sexual repression and fears. Religious obligation 2: Losing my virginity after marriage, despite having less experience and a poorer sex life because of a lack of practice. Social obligation 3: Drinking to have fun, gambling, and partaking in social functions that are in many ways pagan. Religious Obligation 3: Taking part in society and laws as long as those areas do not count as pagan rituals or are contradictory to God's laws. Drinking is not against God's law. Gambling is though. Scientific Obligation (for part 3): Taking care of the body. So drinking minimal amounts. Taking part in society under peer pressure to a degree to lessen social anxiety, or being true to oneself to live in happiness according to individualistic psychological manuals in the west. These are just a few, and there are a large number of contradictory ideas that just cause my brain to stop. I've realized that these cannot hold up. In some ways, people end up justifying their own ways until it gets in the way of what they want. Then they change. Of course, giving into wants is in a way detrimental to religious views. Nothing seems to mesh properly, and it is confusing the hell out of me. Either I come up for excuses or adopt views that allow for these to peacefully coexist, or I end up cutting out certain areas from my life cold turkey.