I can't even find friends on forums that cater for people who are as lonely as I am. Even though I'm an atheist and I don't believe in any form of afterlife, sometimes I entertain the thought that perhaps I died a long time ago and my inability to connect with anyone is due to the fact that I'm trapped in some sort of limbo. Either that or an analogue of Hell. Sadly my paltry social skills have atrophied over the years due to my ineptitude and now it's even less likely that I'll find friends and companionship. I really wanted to experience tenderness before the end of my existence. Perhaps I should accrue a large amount of cats. I think that part of the problem is that I'm dull and have very little to offer others in the way of stimulating conversation. Not a complementary individual at all. I'd give anything for regular social interaction. A connection. But my efforts are always for naught. I'm still just a lonely child wandering around the playground. I'm contemptible.