Life just hasn't been the same since all this started. And I can't even remember when all this started. I had heard about this site from a friend of my mine. So I decided to give it a try. I have been here for almost a month now, and I really don't think that this site has helped me. I feel more as if I am being judged by everything that I have said. There are a few maybe one or two that have tried actually talking to me and I appreciate that, but unfortunately I don't think I'm actually welcomed here as I have seen other people become welcomed. I might try and stay a little longer but I don't know. I'm not getting the help here I was hoping to find. In fact it's actually caused me to become worse off. Things with my fiancee hasn't been supportive either. I thought that maybe leaving him for a week would be helpful. So far it hasn't been. I've gotten to the point where I just don't know what to do any longer. Maybe I should try and get some help from the state and then go see a doctor about everything..