There are many forms of degeneration. Some are more publicised than others. Degeneration of the Mind - where your memory and self slowly slip from you until you end up as nothing more than a shell being helped with every function. Lost to your family and friends and, to many, considered a burden. Degeneration of the Body - where your body betrays you leaving you trapped and aware but unable to do anything. A life sentence from which the only possibility of parole is to be helped to die - something that's often illegal. But what of Degeneration of the Emotions - where slowly your ability to feel slides from you until you are...whatever you are when you have no emotions? When you look at the world and it's flat and has no more meaning than watching tv. This is not recognised or talked about despite the fact that, without emotions, it's hard to interact with others - to socialise or to find meaning. I think, in it's own way, it is as debilitating as the other more recognised forms of degeneration. This is something I've come to realise recently. I cannot be healed without the help of others - someone I can be truly myself with - and I'm too badly damaged to be anything other than damaging to anyone I would try and be truly myself with. I can't make friends. I don't know how - if I ever did. It's a catch-22. I have been, and always shall be, alone. It's time I accept this.