ok..just because i can never post anything without saying something first..these are just some "poems" and i say that because theyre not nearly good enough even to be classed as that. but they help in some way so thought id share..thats all really. some may trigger... ---------- Chained to you, My invisible twin. Droning on inside my head. You live there. Showing me things I don't want to see While I sleep, While I wake. Words in my head, did I think them? Did you put them there? Are you me? Am I you? Sometimes you walk beside me, Whispering in my ear. Only I can hear the words you speak to me. You watch me and I watch you. Two people. But as I turn, you're gone. I try to run but you're still here. You live in my mind. Are you me? Am I you? ------------------- Here you are again The familiar sharp I feel you everywhere: My face, fingers, feet, But just for an instant then you're gone. Then you've left me again Alone. The smell of charred skin lingers Yellowing and black. Unfeeling. How I long to be. Numb. I look at you and fel comfort And disgust. I know it won't be long until I need you here again. -------------------- You're not needed We're fine as we are No room for you 2+2 You don't need opinions You don't need to speak Sit in the corner No one will know You're not wanted You never were No room for you 2+2 Just don't show us up Don't show your hurt Sit in the corner No one will know -------------------- Your hugs distort me, I'm silenced by your kisses Words you've put in my mouth, They've entered my brain. I'm changing all day; Different versions of myself. Am I what you want to see? A mirror reflecting You. Who am I when I'm alone? A blank mirror; Alone with my thoughts, Your thoughts. Cut into my skin, The smell of burning flesh. The only thing that can be real Because you didn't tell me to.