Someone give me one good reason why I shouldn't end it

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Steven Jones, Mar 27, 2009.

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  1. Steven Jones

    Steven Jones New Member

    I've had a really shitty 18 months. It started with the death of my Mother in Aug 2007. Later that year I found out the only relative I have left that I care about was nearly killed in her home. The only way I could satisfy myself she was ok, was to take a month off work & visit her o/s. Fortunately I found her in better shape than I expected. Within a week of coming back home, I was made redundant from my job with a $20,000 bank loan to pay. The worst part was I lost my job on the same day I had to get my beloved dog put to sleep because of cancer. I haven't worked in the last 12 months because I have arthritis in my back meaning I can't do the work I'm used to & aren't trained for anything else. As a result, I'm up to my ears in debt & can't afford to pay my bills. I don't get to sleep until sometimes 5 am because I just can't sleep with all this shit going on.

    The final straw came this morning when I got a call from my local council because I can't afford to pay my dogs registrations (I have 2). I paid 1 last week at the expense of not paying a more important bill but did so to get them off my back. This morning I got woken up after only 3 hours sleep with another call from the council demanding I pay the other today & I can't. I told the guy he can wait because you can't get blood out of a stone & what the hell did he want me to do. He then told me if I didn't pay in 7 days they'd come & confiscate the dog & told me I had another $75 fine to pay. At that point, I told him something to the effect of get fucked & hung up on him. This dog is the one who kept me sane during my Mothers death & my other dog. He's my lifeline & I refuse to let some asshole take him from me. My dogs are all that I have except for my relative whos elderly & I don't expect to live much longer anyway. All that combined with not being able to get work & my financial situation makes me think theres only one easy way out of this & they can all get stuffed. Of course I'd take my dogs with me if I did.That way we can all stay together. Someone give me one good reason why I shouldn't.
  2. jameslyons

    jameslyons Well-Known Member


    I'm really sorry to hear this shit is happening to you. Please don't hurt yourself over money issues. I know it doesn't seem like it, but you will survive through it. :unsure:
  3. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    I don't know from which part of our globe you hail from, but if it is possible for you, maybe consider filing for a bankruptcy?

    If you can do it, why not? There is no shame, and it would help tremendously.

    Take care, and stay safe!
  4. mdmefontaine

    mdmefontaine Antiquities Friend

    i am so sorry you are going through this hugely difficult time.

    while it seems overwhelming, i do believe you can work through it. please consider appealing to the council regarding your dog, and the fees owed. perhaps they will give you an extension and you can pay a part now and a part in a week or so.

    i know it sounds easy to say from my point of view - but just as jameslyons said, money issues are not worth your life. you will be able to get past this point. hold on to us for support.... let us know what happens regarding your beloved pet.

    pm if you want to talk. . . xx
  5. shadowdancer

    shadowdancer Member

    Ok It is all stuff. you have to think of what is best for you. I don't think you are in the USA, so I don't know if what I say will apply for where you are. First list your priorities. In Amer. we can hock things as in borrow money on personal items. If you don't think you will have the money to get it back soon don't hock anything you cherish. Remember it is all stuff that entangles us. We have to start looking at our life in a practical way.

    Priorities. Yourself, your dogs, your surviving family member. Do you have an employment service there? Are there day jobs? Can you borrow the 75 dollars? Look at a way to get the 75 dollars. If that can't happen today can you take your dogs and stay somewhere else for a few days. Can you stay with the family member until things get better? You have to look at all options right now? You have more than you think.

    You may not think you are able to do another job but you have other talents. Remember you have to worry about just today. Can you run a cash register? Can you walk away from the 20, 000.00 loan? Don't worry about your credit. You are in a survival mode. It is about self preservation. I will not prolong except to say we need you on forum. Your dogs need you. Your family member needs you. You have to get yourself in a position to mourn your loss properly. Do not leave it undone. This is your life. Take control of it. Don't live in defeat and drama. The world is in a horrible place, but our lives are still our own. Please don't accept second or third best for your life. You can do this. Get a piece of paper and write your options down. Please let me hear from you.

    Shadow dancer. coming from the best place still left in my heart.:wink:
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