Hello, I am 15 and in high school and since the start of the school year I have been having suisidle thoughts. I've been hinting to my mom and she doesn't listen. I have cut before and no one cared. I haven't slept in a month cuz I wake up with horrible nightmares. I cry every night and I just don't know what's wrong. It's hard in school cuz I can't sleep and I can't focus in school, so my grades suffer. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's so hard being there for others when I don't know he to there for myself. I try talking to others but I can't. Trust anyone. Every guy i like hurts me and I have no friends I was bullied for 2 years and its still going. Sometimes I think about hurting others And its terrifying. I can't stand backstabbers and I've tried to commit suiside when I was only 7. My mom worked 3 jobs and I felt like a burden. My sister walked in when I had a <edit mod total eclipse method>. I have abused sleeping pills and when I do I don't want to wake up. It's like I don't know myself anymore.