I have a consultation on the 29th. Know that I'm manic-depressive with psychosis, and am currently having a lot of difficulty with suicidal impulses and wishes. My head hurts. I want to die more than I want to live. I spend most of my time in bed, but I can't sleep, even though I'm exhausted. I feel the urge to cry for no apparent reason. I know enough about psychopathology to know that I'm exhibiting classic signs of a major depressive episode. Anyway, I've heard ECT can help with all of that. Is this true? Does it take several sessions, or could I feel a difference on the first session? I don't know if I can wait that long, even if it does work. I'm so sick. So hopelessly sick.