Had a terrible day, have been off my meds for a bit and have really been having problems keeping my composure at work. Really suffering this evening, really wanting this to stop. I am not at my house now, but in someone elses, and theres no one here but me. this is a nice house, with big windows looking out into a lush leafy garden. It's quite a stormy night here. I put on the radio and lay on the floor in the dark looking out at the trees shaking and rustling in the wind and rain, and it was some american rock station, well first they played Break on through by the Doors, and then riders on the storm. It was so nice, lying there in the dark drifting away on good music. then I put on Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven, loud, and it's just the best, and I feel so much better. I will feel shit again soon I am sure but it was a nice fifteen minutes.