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Something fundamentally wrong

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by thelewischild, Mar 15, 2009.

  1. thelewischild

    thelewischild Member

    I have become convinced that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. I have never been normal, and i feel that everything about me makes me abnormal somehow - I look weird, I dress unconventionally, I am bisexual, I am not popular and I can't talk to people. I am tempted to cut because I feel like I don't deserve to be here and I want to punish myself for every single little thing about myself. The meds I was prescribed don't seem to be working. I feel like a burden to everyone I know - because they have to listen to me talk crap and watch me feel like this when I shouldn't feel like this. Ultimately, I don't want to be me, and I don't think I even deserve the love I crave. I am just a horrid and hideous person and don't feel I should be alive.
     
  2. Beautiful Disaster

    Beautiful Disaster Forum Buddy SF Supporter

    :hug:

    im glad that you're alive.. now i can get to know you!
     
  3. thelewischild

    thelewischild Member

    Thank you.