I have become convinced that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. I have never been normal, and i feel that everything about me makes me abnormal somehow - I look weird, I dress unconventionally, I am bisexual, I am not popular and I can't talk to people. I am tempted to cut because I feel like I don't deserve to be here and I want to punish myself for every single little thing about myself. The meds I was prescribed don't seem to be working. I feel like a burden to everyone I know - because they have to listen to me talk crap and watch me feel like this when I shouldn't feel like this. Ultimately, I don't want to be me, and I don't think I even deserve the love I crave. I am just a horrid and hideous person and don't feel I should be alive.