That I will probably never kill myself, I'm too proud to go like that. I think it will be more likely that I'll go completely insane and become a total psycho. Not saying I would do anything but I think deep down my subconscious won't allow me to be beaten by bullies or anyone else. Somewhere in my gut it's rooted that I can't allow them to win, no matter what. Someday perhaps I will suppress my fears and become something bullies will fear, a completely fearless person who won't bend over for anyone. Sorry for going off on a tangent, just had the need to rant again.