I have a question. Hopefully this post won't be locked... "You want me to prove that I suffer in terms you can equate to pain or disease... When life has become futile, meaningless, unendurable, it must be allowed to end." I've been thinking about this for a while now. Because it has become futile. I've already set aside some homemade razors for it. I realize the line between self injury and suicide is pretty big but I have the will to do it. I just need a reason to live. Every reason others have extended to me (or lack there of) I've been able to shoot down with logic. In my opinion we are all worthless, especially me. I hate everyone, including me. And the more I learn the worse it gets. Your feeble toenail sized monkey brains are unable to fathom the true scope of the infinite universe that surrounds us. While I'm no different, I believe I have discovered the true elements behind the mechanics of God and science. Though I won't bore you with the details, which would be nothing more than misunderstood, meaningless dribble within the conscious part of your mind. Your all FAR too brainwashed to ever see... Hmm, perhaps I should resume my original intentions for writing this publication. Though I will mention that I'm not intelligent, only intensely observant despite my apparent emotional flaws. Though I would at least be content with a mild sense of depression if it were in some way compensated by happiness. But while our pointless existence proves we mean nothing to any sort of human perceived deity, one person does matter to me. She's the only thinking human I've found. Unburdened by the moronic arrogance over the general populace. Regrettably though she is thousands of miles away and I have zero means of obtaining any form of transportation. I've made my video (if you would like to see I could arrange to send it to you within 2 days time though it does contain disturbing imagery); written my letter; and made two razors. I just need some reason to continue this worthless existence within the layer of the physical. The only reason I have now is the notion that I have overlooked something.