Stumbled on this website and thought i'd make a post to see if anyone could enlighten me. I have insomnia and the other night I was watching a show called "most evil" where this guy "rates" the evilness of serial killers on a scale. Anyhow he was describing their characteristics and personalities and I kind of noticed much of what he was saying applied to me. I've always liked to be alone and don't like interacting face to face with people. I have rediculous thoughts of rage even when slightly annoyed. I use to cut myself with razors several years ago to sort of calm myself and get my emotions under control. I stopped doing that long ago and just trying to hold my emotions inside. Lately I've been picturing acting out my thoughts of rage in my mind when someone angers me or sometimes I picture committing suicide in my mind. I'm not sure if you've all went though this or what. I'm almost always depressed and have nearly uncontrollable thoughts of violence and suicide even when slightly angered. I'm not sure if i'm just going through a funk or what the deal is. Perhaps I have some sort of disorder? Has anyone else experienced these thoughts of not only harming youself but others too? I don't think i'll ever act out on any of these thoughts because I can keep it under control. Its just alarming to have these picture flash through my mind all the time.