something's different this time

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by elvinchild, Apr 15, 2010.

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  1. elvinchild

    elvinchild Well-Known Member

    I'm planning on going soon. I've lost my job. I'm losing my home soon. I've lost my musical inspiration- my only purpose. I've lost my trust in everybody; I have been betrayed. For the first time I realize how truly alone I am and always will be.

    I have lost everything; my love, trust, job, money, life passion - Nothing, nothing relieves this pain.

    I have my plan. I wrote my note. I only need to buy the supplies.

    Sometimes I remember joy, and I cannot believe it has been stolen from me forever... I am terrified to face the choice of unbearable suffering or death; it is my worst nightmare, it is surreal.. but I do not wake up. Then sometimes, I come to terms with reality; and amidst all my screaming, crying, violent self-destruction... a strange wave of peace rushes over me. For all must meet their end.
  2. ZombiePringle

    ZombiePringle Forum Buddy and Antiquities Friend

    Just wanted you to know that I read it. Just try to hang in there. :hug: sorry I can't be more supportive right now... Having a lot going on tonight.
  3. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I know what that feeling is just different circumstances....
    want to tell us more about the things that are upsetting you before you go and buy your supplies?..
    stay safe..
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