I've faced depression in short periods of time throughout my life (as I was bullied as a child). However, as of the past year and a half I've gone through serious periods of depression with strong suicidal thoughts. I guess it all started when my parents told me that they had an affair when I was a kid. Personally, I held my parents on a pedestal and hearing that and the story kind of made me fall into a depression / rebellious state (about a year ago). This ended up with me basically destroying the majority of my relationships I had with friends and my girlfriend of 3 years. As one thing let to another, I started to second guess myself, and as I was losing my closest friends I ended up losing confidence and not caring about myself. I am a university student, and my grades have basically plummeted since this event, and it really has cost me job opportunities and careers in areas I was very interested in pursuing. I did see a Therapist (against my parents will), and it did help for some time. However, there have just been times that I have sat for hours on end and just cried not knowing what to do and who to speak to. This in turn has also destroyed the relationship I have with my parents, having daily conversations turning into fights. I get reminders on the daily as to how much of a mess up I am, and how I will never learn to be better (relating to my academics and job position).