First of all,sorry for the bad english. I hate myself. I'm so fragile,i'm so depressed,i'm so coward. I'm fucked up but there's nothing i can do about it.I have professional help but it doesn't work.I can't go to school.I barely can get up,it's so hard i can't explain... I have severe depression and borderline personality disorder,i cut myself and my mom knows it, and she is the reason i'm alive. I just can't do it, not only because that will destroy her life,but because everything she done to me.She is the greatest person in the world to me. Everytime i remember all the hope she have,everything she says,and then i remember how fucked up i am and how i can't stand living in this world,it is no doubt the worst feeling. I'm in completely despair,agony,depression,insanity, and i feel like this is going to last forever,and the only solution is dying. Sorry for the useless,stupid thread,but i had to do it.