I mean, really, really hard. I'm so angry when I visit this forum; reading posts only fuels me. More than a few times I've had to just sign out so as not to say anything I will regret, not to mention hurt someone deeply. I'm not sad anymore, just ferociously angry. But happy and angry. This place is comfortable for me, I don't want to get myself banned. But here I am, waving a red flag for the admins (what the hell, Patch?). I guess I don't wan to be banned, but if I start to deserve it, I want the admins to get me the hell out as soon as possible, so I don't mess anyone up. Hm. Maybe they'll ban me now, just to be safe. Man, I suck. Sorry for my major suckage, guys.