...it just hits me like a brick. Like someone has just taken out some gigantic hammer and decided to smack me over the head with it, again and again, until im just brain dead. I get so numb, mentally, ya know everything just slows down and I dont wanna function. Just lay in bed and hopefully go to sleep. I can pinpoint a few reasons for it, but even when you come up with reasons, unless theres immediate solutions it doesnt change anything. There are long term solutions but when your this brain fucked for a good percentage of the time, you just cant knuckle down for very long and make any gains. I bought my mum a painting for mothers day, ya its like 3 days late now. Its an original, cost me a fair bit, but i try to make a point now of buying unique gifts for people. I doubt she will even like it, its not her style, its mine lol. I cant even be bothered getting off my phat ass to go down the post office. Im trully, TRULLY sick of being like this.