Today started off ok I decided to get off my ass and look for a job. I handed in a few cv's or as you Americans refer to them as resume. Went ok got back home and worked out but I felt soo sick when I was working out. Over the weekend I stayed with a friend and foolishly tried ecstasy and coke which fucked me up over the whole weekend I had a headache and didn't sleep. Things have been ok I started talking to this really sweet girl and we have been getting close I have even made plans to see her seems like thats the only good thing going for me. One of my best friends which I have known for years starts talking to me on msn today. He was a great friend but got addicted to world of warcraft ( an online rpg computer game ) it basically made him get kicked out of 3 colleges and mess up his life. So he starts telling me that I should play it and if I didn't that we couldn't be friends. Now I'm 19 thats something you would hear from a 12 year old. I am trying soo fucking hard to fight my depression but when something annoying and stupid happens like this it gets to me soo much. Also my friend has been talking to this girl and it has just made him go on and on about her. Now normally I don't mind but it kinda sucks when you feel like the loneliest guy on the planet and your friend won't stfu about how great his girl is. Its soo annoying right now I am soo angry I normally never get angry rarely but now I am soo fucking pissed off.