Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Mystic, Jan 9, 2010.
I am going to die soon.
Nobody will notice.
Nobody will care.
At least this isolation will end.
UR feeling isolated and alone I take it...I know that feeling all to well...but sometimes we isolate our selves from the world and dont reach out and get help when we need it...I might suggest calling a trusted friend or a crisis line or reach out in some other way like u r doing by posting here...things can get beter and they do all the time all that is needed is for u to make the 1st step.
I have no friends.
Doctors laugh at me.
People ignore me.
What' the point of living?
You have friends now!
Doctors do care and are prolly just making light of your situation.. not laughing at you..
I have not ignored you nor as 1izombie so you now have friends that don't ignore you ...maybe it is time to get a new doctor if you really feel he is against you...
See just by joining SF you have went to 2/3 on your list.
The point is that life does get better and that happiness is possible...have you thought of finding a therapist? Is family a help at all?
We care here so talk/post as much as you need, it helps.
im so sorry to hear that,i also in isolation & people either laugh at me or igron me.but i care about you & we can be good friends. you can pm me anytime.
take care :hug:
You won't ever be ignored here. :hug: Please let us try to help. Here if you ever need to talk.
I do appreciate the comments, but...
If anyone here personally knew me, I can promise you would not be a friend for long. People get close to me, then run or walk away. They turn and then ignore me - or even laugh at me...then deride and hate me. Ocassionally, it has even turned to violence.
And I don't actually have to "do" or say anything. It happens. It always happens. I have never insulted anyone, I have never hurt anyone, but it happens.
I am one of those people that for some reason be cursed and denstined to spend an existance on the outer dark fringes of human society. A place where you would not even leave the worst type of garbage. A place alone and unwanted.
I have spent my life trying to identify the source of this, to find out "why". But having spent an entire lifetime trying and being isolated and removed from the human race, I have no fight in me any more. Whatever this "thing" is, it follows me everywhere, even on chatrooms, forums, Facebook. Everywhere I go, this comes with me and people turn away.
People have ripped away everything I have and all I am is an empty shell waiting to calculate if living is any better than dying.
Now I don't think there is much time left.
Who basically gives a shit?
people are,all people, afraid of the unknown. they just judge people on how they look or anything without even talk or know them,there is nothing worng with you, they dont know what they are missing, its there lost.
people just dont see your iner beuty,i like your inner beuty,and i like the darkness,and many people like darkness, i like metal song so i serach for people love these song.so, you have to search for people like you, see you for who you are & like you.
forget the society, they just reject anybody they dont know,you have to like yourself for who you are & search for people like the same as you.
take care :hug:
Death is the truest definition of isolation. To be completely alone. No more anything. That is what I'm hoping for. To me it sounds like you dont want the isolation. That you crave having someone to really be there and understand you. Something you havent had much of.
So please stay here and keep posting. Dont isolate yourself. Dont stay alone with all the thoughts and feelings. Share them here. Although all the members here are real, we arent there in RL. So you can talk. People will understand. And nobody will be there "in your face" so to speak.
Please dont give up yet. I dont think death is really what you want.
I don't WANT any of this crap. I just want to be a normal person, with normal friends in a normal social scenario. I didn't ask for this, I don't want this..
..but this is how things have become. I have had no control over this, people resent and ignore me. That is a way of life for me. I wish to hell it was different, I wish to hell I knew why this is happening.
But these answers don't exist. I have been forced to accept that I am forever alone and friendless. Life has taught me that it will always be a mistake to try, because anyone who comes near me, won't EVER stay near for very long.
And this is how it has been for approaching fifty years.
Its very easy to say "you have to like yourself", but how do you do that when everyone hates you? I may start thinking that, but then over time when people walk past you and resent you (for no real reason), you begin to think there must be something hateful within me. Something I do not like..
So perhaps its time to do the world a big favour...
This "global hatred" which surrounds me is the main reason it has taken me a while to post and why I will only post the bare mimium about myself. I have shown others what I am really like inside...bet you can't guess what happened?
I know it's got to be hard to trust people when they've let you down. But PLEASE give it another chance.
I'm around a lot, so feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk, or just need a friend. Not everyone will walk away from you. This website is proof of that. At least give someone here a chance to reach out to you and try to help you.
don't diss my home beeatch!!
i happen to exist there by choice and ya know what??
this place feel's like home it's where i belong and yet silly people seem to try and drag me out of it and think that i'm better off for it.....it's pathetic
those that exist on the outside are in the best vantage point to see the issues and problems others walk by and ignore
we suffer because of the bonds we form and lose but... and this is just my new found cold view of the world... i never suffered when i had no bonds sure it does be lonely sometimes and in a way that would be considered suffering but honestly that mild discomfort due to the instinctual need to socialise is NOTHING compared to the suffering trying to fit in or belong or love etc has given me now i try to gladly sever those ties to even the base of my own humanity out of necessity
i'm not saying you should do the same far from it but what i will say is simply
if people don't like you for you then they're obviously intolerant moronic people and just a part of "society" *spits*
take it from someone that DID fit in and what not that it's OVERRATED
don't feel bad for being yourself an yeah good on you getting violent to people who senselessly judge others they deserve it i.m.h.o although i'll prob be thought of badly for condoning it and i'm sure you didn't ASK for it etc
"They" as in "everyone who is not me".
NO! People are violent towards ME! If I approach someone I don't know THEY are hositle to ME. People I have never met or seen before - if they are not ignoring me or resenting me in some way - are picking fights with me.
I even had to take martial arts lessons to defend myself in those instances when running wasn't an option. (but thats another story).
This is yet another reason why I do not deserve to exist.
This is a major reason I do not want to go out, why I keep away from social clubs and avoid situations where I have to approach anyone I do not know.
i'm sorry for the misunderstanding
IF they're getting violent towards you the only question remains....
what honestly could be that bad that people are attacking you?
it's ok if you feel you can't share with us but it does help.... up to you really
it just doesn't make sense to me that people would be that hostile to you for no reason whatsoever although in general most people are (insert hate filled tirade here)
do you reckon you can fill in the blanks though?
really i can vouch for everyone here that they are not judgemental at all and good people and that's saying something being a misanthropic suicidal hate filled person lol
Why?? Beats the hell out of me. This violence thing was a few years ago. It doesn't happen now because I don't/won't go into that situation. But if I knew the reason WHY people take a negaitve turn towards me (EVERY SINGLE TIME) then I would have the secrets of the universe in my hand!
But it isn't going to happen. I get ignored. I always have been ignored. I always will be. In Real Life, in forums and likewise in Chat rooms - such as this one. I am alone, isolated, segrated, seperated and forever divided from the rest of humanity. Please don't give me the "Its thier loss" arguement, if I was "supposed" to be isolated from everyone else, then why have I not been made so I can emotionally cope with the isolation?
Basic upshot is I can't cope with being alone. It makes me depressed. Now, it has made me suicidal.
Sure, being dead will make me isolated, but at least I won't have to think about it - and that is more than enough to satisfy me. I would like to thank a certain medical website who quoted the lethal dosage of paracetamol and now all I need is to buy enough alchohol to wash it all down with. Problems solved.
You aren't being ignored here.
So now I'm really not happy!!!!
One reason I came here was because of the Chat Room. I just want to talk to someone. It would help me because I am being sufficated with being alone in my life. I have spent a lot of hours there.
So I am going to ask why - in two days - only two people have even acknowledged me. I say Hi to people, and then I'm blanked. Nobody asks me anything, nobody speaks to me..
Life has been cruel to me in many ways....I don't need this.
Perhaps maybe this is not the place for me?
You did say that two people acknowledged you. So can you talk to those two people? They obviously care!
Just saying "hi" and nothing else doesn't qualify. It seems after all this time things havn't changed, at least not for the better.
I guess my situation is just something I have to deal with by myself. There is no one who is basically interested in me, so why should I bother?
Life? - its not for everyone.