This is all just so pointless, i mean, im doing the same thing over and over, it's not like i can really do much else. My friends, the few that i have, are always too busy to see me, and the ones that make the effort live too far away for me to see regularly. I spend my days jus sleeping or on the laptop, and i keep thinking, 'what kind of existence is this?' Everything is so much effort now, i went shopping today, but i didn't enjoy it, it just wore me out. Iv taken to skipping lessons because, well, i just cant be bothered. I'm slipping, and im giving up. Because i just don't care anymore. And that, really, is the perfect reason for me to just give up, to screw it all and leave it all behind. Its not like i'll be missed anyway. *shrugs* I'm not holding anymore, i don't wanna fight this.