Sooner or later I'm going to b gone. I want to leave. I stay because of my children, but they will grow and no longer need me. At that time I will leave. Jst disappear into the nothing that I am. Sooner than later is my wish. I give up. I have a wonderful new man in my life and I should b happy. My family is safe now. But I'm not. I don't deserve to b. I let my children down. I can't even fix wat they have been through. I am the common denominator in all my problems therefore I feel I should go. No response pls...not worth your time jst needed to write for no other reason than my selfishness.