Finally got the guts to call the clinic today to make an appointment (was so sure that I wouldn't get in anytime soon)... they said to go for 3 today.... 40mins!!! So nervous i feel sick to my stomach... dont know what to say....how to begin... i am freaking here.... trying to convince myself to go ...just do it! How is it that asking for help is so damn hard! Really have no idea what i am so scared of... but the invisible hands around my throat, churning stomach, shaking hands, tears..... i dont know if i can do this.... i wish i could just be freakin normal! how stupid is it to kow you need to go actually want to go.. and then ..... be to this paralysed by fear. keep telling myself that a few minutes of discomfort telling someone how i feel could save me...lol then i ask myself for what!