It's been awhile since I've been on here. It's mainly because I feel like almost like I would just be saying the same thing about my problems each and every time, but I just can't ignore how I feel right now. I have been sober for two and half years. I have a steady job and a couple of months ago, I was able to move out of the recovery house where I had been for the last two years and into my own place. I am very grateful for this. However, I still feel unhappy and unsure about life. I still hurt over old wounds and it's not like I have much in the way of a real social life. I struggle so hard to connect with others and I am afraid I will always be alone and worse, lonely. Sometimes, I don't always find what I'm looking for in AA or talking to a therapist and I remember how I used alcohol to numb the pain. I don't think I will act on the urge, but it was the one alternative as I could never fully go through taking my life. I'm sorry for rambling like this. I wish that I could just be okay with what I have, but I just still feel these voids in my life.