I'm sorry for making like... one thread a day here-- but I've got no one to talk to about these things. I just checked my facebook for the first time in awhile, and my ex messaged me a couple of times. Once to let me know that he still has my things, and would like to deliver them to me sometime soon- since I havent been able to come and get them and once more to let me know that he was moving and changing his facebook account... and would send me his new address and stuff after he moves. ...why? Why does he have to be so nice to me and pretend that he cares? I just want him to hate me if he doesn't want to be with me anymore... it's SO HARD for me to hate him- and to not be in love with him anymore!! I just can't do it at all! I keep trying to hard, but just can't do it! He was the person who protected me and stood by me for 10 years. he was my best friend and I don't want to let him go-- but he doesn't love me anymore and there's nothing I can do about it! IT's just not fair!! I wanna bash my face against the wall until I go to sleep forever or get brain damage!! >< AGHHH!!!!! I can't STAND this!! I just can't stand the fact that he isn't mine anymore-- like a spoiled fucking kid-- and I hate it!